fifteen I began to read philosophical works, my rejection of the

doctrine became a conscious one at a very early age. From the time

I was sixteen I ceased to say my prayers and ceased to go to church

or to fast of my own volition. I did not believe what had been

taught me in childhood but I believed in something. What it was I

believed in I could not at all have said. I believed in a God, or

rather I did not deny God -- but I could not have said what sort of

God. Neither did I deny Christ and his teaching, but what his